What's in my bag

So here I am again. I've decided to put up a blogging-schedule. That means I will be publishing a new blogpost every week. I feel like sunday would be a nice day. When we all are having a cosy day in. Drinking tea, reading blogs, eating cookies... Tell me if you'd like the idea or what day you would prefer the most!

But now lets get back to business!

To start off, I thought it'd be nice to do a "What's in my bag". I have to admit I am kind of addicted watching those on Youtube, but I am way to insecure, to film myself and put it on the internet.  So I thought why not write about it. Really, I have seen tons of 'What's in my bag's. I especially loved the ones from Hello October, Zoella, Lilly Pebbles and Essie Button. Go ahead and check them out if you like. I really recommend their blogs and youtube-channels.

So, now let's dive in!

This is me awkwardly trying to show you how to carry the bag around with you. 

The bag I am using right now is from Hallhuber. I found it on a sale at Ingolstadt Village and fell in love right away. I was looking for a big bag, which could fit a lot. This one seemed perfect. It got another jersey-bag with a zipper in it. But I prefer it without it. So now it's just a really huge bag. I love it! 

- Hallhuber -

I also really like the detailing on the bag. It is simple but still very chic, classy and with the rough seam it's also a little edgy and cool. 

Here we are getting to the interesting part: the content. Okay I guess there is another confession I have to make. This wasn't all the content in my bag. Yes, I had lots and lots of rubbish in there. But I know no one of you would enjoy looking at pictures of old receipts with chewing gums in them, wouldn't you? ;-) So this is the rather clean and tidy part of my bag, which are going to see. Hopefully you'll still enjoy... 

This is one of the best handcremes I have ever tried. It's the Neutrogena Handcreme ' My hands usually get dry very quickly and this stuff works immediately! So if your hands feel like a dry patchy desert - this the solution!

I fell in love with the vintage-packaging of the Odol-Pastillen. They also taste really good and refresh your breath.

Maybeline Baby Lips

Astor Soft Sensation Lipcolorbutter 016 

Did I just mention the dryness around my hand-area. Unfortunately it is the same with the lips. So I always need a lipcare in my handbag otherwise i will panic! I once went on a hiking-trip in Iceland with no moisturising creme, lipcare whatsoever - you really did not want to see my lips at that time! It wasn't pretty, I'll tell ya!

If you want to change up your look a little if you are on the go. The Astor Lipcolorbutter is a perfect product to throw on even without a mirror. It is super pigmented and is in addition to that really long lasting.

House Keys, Car Keys - never leave the house without them.

My phone, which i am sadly addicted to. It's a white i-Phone 4s and as you can see is not in the best condition. It still works so i won't get the display fixed very soon.

These are my headphones, which i got on my birthday from my brothers. They are from AKG and work pretty good. I am not an expert but I usually take the tube or train pretty often and like to listen to music, without getting disturbed. So they are soundproof! :)

If you already know 'paperblanks' you'll know what i am talking about. It's a company who make lovely timeplanner, notebooks, jernals, etc. Check it out if you are interested in a nice, and good quality timeplanner:

http://www.paperblanks.com/at/de/ 

Those are some pictures i just got printed. It's from the trip to Iceland I mentioned previously.

This is the proof. I love going to the cinema. This is only from the last past months. 

My wallet is from Vera Bradley. I have had it for quite some time now and still like it very much. Especially the unique pattern. Excuse my unpainted nails! I really have to take care of them ;-)

I hope you liked this quick 'What's in my bag'- post! If so, feel free to leave a comment! Do you like going to the cinema as much as me? If yes, what was your most recent movie? 

See you soon,

Tatjana xx

Christmas Gift Wrapping

Giving gifts is one of my favorite things I like about christmas. 

Of course it's nice to receive some, but I find it even more exciting picking the right gift for family and friends who you love. Unfortunately I'm a very unorganised and clumsy person. So Christmas time can be quite stressful and overloaded with things to do. Especially right before Christmas Eve. 

To my wonders, I started buying gifts quite early this year. Of course there are still missing some. But if there didn't, that would be very unlike me ;) 

So today I decided to start wrapping the gifts I already got and I thought I would share them with you. Giftwrapping is a secret passion of mine. 

Because I'm a very artsy, creative person I like to put some extra efford in the wrapping and make the gift appear even more personal at first sight. 

So I made a few signs, wrote the name of the receiver on it, bought lovely little glitter stars, etc etc. Take a look and find out yourself. Maybe this even will inspire you to wrap your gifts a little different and more personal. 

All in all I hope you aren't as stressed and chaotic as me while Christmas time!

xx

And now I'll do what's best for me

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This is a subject i wanted to talk about for a long time now. 

Probably mainly because I struggle with it the most. 

Don't get me wrong. I don't think I treat myself any good. 

But I often find it hard to put myself first instead of others. 

It's not that I'm completely selfless, it's just that I like to help people. My perhaps biggest problem is, that I find it very hard saying 'no'. And that's actually one of the worst mistakes I could do. 

The moment people realize, they find an advantage out of you. Some may find it unconsciously and some may actually be aware of the way they are using you. 

To me time is the biggest gift you could give to someone. 

Time is very precious to me. When someone else is taking the time and spending a day with me, or the other way round, I feel like it is quite a valuable gift. Maybe it isn't appreciated the way it should be. 

Now I'm at a point that, I've spent a lot of time helping others that my own needs and my own life is kind of left behind. I'm at a point, that I gave too much time to people who didn't see or acknowleged that, and I feel like I am not given. Even though it's not my natural behavior I'm starting to say 'no' to some things and go after my own dreams.

 I'm going to do now what's best for me and speak up for myself. 

My whole life I have been a shy person. But what do I have to loose when speaking up. I only say out loud what's been in my head the whole time. 

Actually thinking about it, this really is what makes the person I am. 

I should believe in me and my opinions and deal with it. Some won't agree with it and won't want to be my friends, maybe because of it. But it is who I am and I am the first person who needs to accept that and learn to love myself for that. 

So sometimes I feel we just need to give ourself some of our precious time to work on our own dreams. Because in the end we only have ourselves. Only we can change something to move ahead. And that's not bad. As long as we are aware of who we are, who we want to be and how we will get there.

About this I wrote a few snippets for perhaps a new song. It's not finished yet, but i will finish it soon i hope :) It's hopefully the start of becoming me and following my dreams. 

Gardener of Dreams

I'm a shell from somebody else

Watering dreams from anothers land

sitting on goals while helping you stand

Walking on rocks, so you'll have the sand

I'm a gardener of dreams

but growing others self-esteem

won't make mine come real

It's not the kind of me 

who turns away when you're in need

But the gardener of dreams

needs to let her own seeds free

They say it's much easier to fly

when it's not your own faith you rely on

But a lack of hope will pass you by

It's time to greet not say goodbye

I'm a gardener of dreams

but growing others self-esteem

won't make mine come real

It's not the kind of me 

who turns away when you're in need

But the gardener of dreams

needs to let her own seeds free

A taste of danger 

will taste much better

when you caused it yourself

The risks you take 

the mistakes 

you make
make you who you are

I'm a gardener of dreams

but growing others self-esteem

won't make mine come real

It's not the kind of me 

who turns away when you're in need

But the gardener of dreams

needs to let her own seeds free

I'm not a shell from somebody else

I went to Berlin!

A few weeks ago I traveled to Berlin with two of my best friends Kaja and Miri. 

We drove there by bus, which was quite a trip ;) We stayed at a small little Hostel in a 12-bed room only for three nights. But still we had a great time. 

I just wanted to share a few moments with you all. 

Miris Birthday was on the second day we stayed in Berlin, and because not only she was a huge musical fan, and besides that couldn't get enough of vampires, we all got tickets to a backstage tour behind the scenes of the Musicalproduction 'Dance of the Vampires'. 

Besides that we did a lot of power-shopping in vintage stores as well as 'normal ones' like Forever21, Primark, Urban Outfitters etc... 

The highlight at the end was a lovely American Diner where we ate humongous 

veggieburger with fries! 

All in all it was a great trip and I would do it again anytime!

See you all soon!!!

There is an opportunity in every difficulty

So here I go. 

This is something i spent a lot of time making my mind up about it, thinking and analyzing. Looking at my life from another perspective, it seems to contain of quite a lot of rollercoasters of feelings. I can laugh so hard, even my tummy muscels start to ace, but on the other hand I can also ball my eyes out when getting upset. I do think I can get angry with someone. It usually turns out that I'm not really that angry very long and just get very upset, sad and depressed about things. 

Yesterday I had a very low and down day. It wasn't one of my best. And now looking back, I'm quite disappointed with myself. Today is a new day and I want to make the best out of it. It's what I want to do with every single day. Unfortunately yesterday I kind of failed. So now I have to make up for two days. It's never too late I think. If I had to name you a life goal, I would probably  answer: Be happy? That's all I want and all I can ask for. That doesn't mean I will do everything only so I am the happiest person on earth, never mind how others feel about it. When I say all I want to reach for in life is happiness, I mean I want to be that person who wakes up every morning with a smile on her face, without the fact, that maybe not everything is working out perfectly, not everything is possibly the way you would want it. But you still find a reason to make you smile. I want to notice every little positive thing in every day. 

Doesn't matter how small it is. 

It will remind you how worthwhile and treacherous you and your tiny little world of people, problems, job, food, etc actually is. 

That includes making other people happy as well. Because seeing someone beeing happy because of something you said or that you did, is very fulfilling and all in all feels great I guess. To me it does.  

There is a quote I read, which said: "Your journey will be much lighter and easier if you don't carry your past with you". I believe your past will always be a part of you. You may not want to remember things about your past, things you didn't like or days which made you upset. But even those days capture moments, which helped you become the person you are today. Even those memories, which you'd like to erase, they are actually helping you understand things, helping you handle situations in the future.

 A broken heart of yours teaches you how to fix it. If you are having a sad day, it teaches you how to get happy again. In reality you only need to start to open your eyes. You don't even have to search long. As soon as you start looking for the good you will find the beauty in things even quicker than you thought. You will start to enjoy, capture and appreciate it. Suddenly the first cup of coffee, the sun that touches your face when waking up, the smell of breakfast, the warm shower, a lonely walk through the park, a butterfly on the window sill, the neighbors kids' smile, a hug from someone you love, or only the fact you are getting another chance to make the best out of your day every single time you wake up in the morning. (Gosh that sounded terribly cheesy, like out of a Nicholas Sparks novel but way worse. But all in all I hope you get what I am saying. Even though it sounds terribly cheesy it actually has some truth behind it...)

If there was a difficulty the other day it doesn't matter now. 

Today is your opportunity. 

So already writing this down made me feel better. Maybe possibly someone reads this and gets inspired by it. It is way easier than it sounds. Sometimes we only have to start. 

I've got the best and most lovely people in my life and I am very grateful for them. I want to tell them this more often, they should know how much they mean to me. And a short little message maybe can make their day a little brighter. And as I already said, seeing the people I love being happy, can also make my day.

 Hope you are going to have the best day ever!

Where I have been...

So, this took quite a while. 

After my spontaneous idea starting a blog at the beginning of this year, I somehow didn't continue the way i had planned. There have been so many changes. I don't know where to start. 

First of all I'd like to apologize for not posting anything. I feel very bad. But nevertheless, I'm still here and right now it feels really good coming back to this blog. I really missed sitting down at the end of the day, with a cup of tea while looking through some pictures, writing down what happened and what is going on in my mind currently. Now looking back, I should have continued blogging regularly. It's quite therapeutic and I don't have to carry a load on my back. 

Since my last blogpost there has happened so much. I will fill you in with everything, I promise. But right now I'm having difficulties summarizing everything. So keep updated! 

I'm full of ideas and subjects I'd like to talk about! I missed this so much! Good to be back :) 

See you soon xx