Christmas Gift Wrapping

Giving gifts is one of my favorite things I like about christmas. 

Of course it's nice to receive some, but I find it even more exciting picking the right gift for family and friends who you love. Unfortunately I'm a very unorganised and clumsy person. So Christmas time can be quite stressful and overloaded with things to do. Especially right before Christmas Eve. 

To my wonders, I started buying gifts quite early this year. Of course there are still missing some. But if there didn't, that would be very unlike me ;) 

So today I decided to start wrapping the gifts I already got and I thought I would share them with you. Giftwrapping is a secret passion of mine. 

Because I'm a very artsy, creative person I like to put some extra efford in the wrapping and make the gift appear even more personal at first sight. 

So I made a few signs, wrote the name of the receiver on it, bought lovely little glitter stars, etc etc. Take a look and find out yourself. Maybe this even will inspire you to wrap your gifts a little different and more personal. 

All in all I hope you aren't as stressed and chaotic as me while Christmas time!

xx

And now I'll do what's best for me

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This is a subject i wanted to talk about for a long time now. 

Probably mainly because I struggle with it the most. 

Don't get me wrong. I don't think I treat myself any good. 

But I often find it hard to put myself first instead of others. 

It's not that I'm completely selfless, it's just that I like to help people. My perhaps biggest problem is, that I find it very hard saying 'no'. And that's actually one of the worst mistakes I could do. 

The moment people realize, they find an advantage out of you. Some may find it unconsciously and some may actually be aware of the way they are using you. 

To me time is the biggest gift you could give to someone. 

Time is very precious to me. When someone else is taking the time and spending a day with me, or the other way round, I feel like it is quite a valuable gift. Maybe it isn't appreciated the way it should be. 

Now I'm at a point that, I've spent a lot of time helping others that my own needs and my own life is kind of left behind. I'm at a point, that I gave too much time to people who didn't see or acknowleged that, and I feel like I am not given. Even though it's not my natural behavior I'm starting to say 'no' to some things and go after my own dreams.

 I'm going to do now what's best for me and speak up for myself. 

My whole life I have been a shy person. But what do I have to loose when speaking up. I only say out loud what's been in my head the whole time. 

Actually thinking about it, this really is what makes the person I am. 

I should believe in me and my opinions and deal with it. Some won't agree with it and won't want to be my friends, maybe because of it. But it is who I am and I am the first person who needs to accept that and learn to love myself for that. 

So sometimes I feel we just need to give ourself some of our precious time to work on our own dreams. Because in the end we only have ourselves. Only we can change something to move ahead. And that's not bad. As long as we are aware of who we are, who we want to be and how we will get there.

About this I wrote a few snippets for perhaps a new song. It's not finished yet, but i will finish it soon i hope :) It's hopefully the start of becoming me and following my dreams. 

Gardener of Dreams

I'm a shell from somebody else

Watering dreams from anothers land

sitting on goals while helping you stand

Walking on rocks, so you'll have the sand

I'm a gardener of dreams

but growing others self-esteem

won't make mine come real

It's not the kind of me 

who turns away when you're in need

But the gardener of dreams

needs to let her own seeds free

They say it's much easier to fly

when it's not your own faith you rely on

But a lack of hope will pass you by

It's time to greet not say goodbye

I'm a gardener of dreams

but growing others self-esteem

won't make mine come real

It's not the kind of me 

who turns away when you're in need

But the gardener of dreams

needs to let her own seeds free

A taste of danger 

will taste much better

when you caused it yourself

The risks you take 

the mistakes 

you make
make you who you are

I'm a gardener of dreams

but growing others self-esteem

won't make mine come real

It's not the kind of me 

who turns away when you're in need

But the gardener of dreams

needs to let her own seeds free

I'm not a shell from somebody else

I went to Berlin!

A few weeks ago I traveled to Berlin with two of my best friends Kaja and Miri. 

We drove there by bus, which was quite a trip ;) We stayed at a small little Hostel in a 12-bed room only for three nights. But still we had a great time. 

I just wanted to share a few moments with you all. 

Miris Birthday was on the second day we stayed in Berlin, and because not only she was a huge musical fan, and besides that couldn't get enough of vampires, we all got tickets to a backstage tour behind the scenes of the Musicalproduction 'Dance of the Vampires'. 

Besides that we did a lot of power-shopping in vintage stores as well as 'normal ones' like Forever21, Primark, Urban Outfitters etc... 

The highlight at the end was a lovely American Diner where we ate humongous 

veggieburger with fries! 

All in all it was a great trip and I would do it again anytime!

See you all soon!!!

There is an opportunity in every difficulty

So here I go. 

This is something i spent a lot of time making my mind up about it, thinking and analyzing. Looking at my life from another perspective, it seems to contain of quite a lot of rollercoasters of feelings. I can laugh so hard, even my tummy muscels start to ace, but on the other hand I can also ball my eyes out when getting upset. I do think I can get angry with someone. It usually turns out that I'm not really that angry very long and just get very upset, sad and depressed about things. 

Yesterday I had a very low and down day. It wasn't one of my best. And now looking back, I'm quite disappointed with myself. Today is a new day and I want to make the best out of it. It's what I want to do with every single day. Unfortunately yesterday I kind of failed. So now I have to make up for two days. It's never too late I think. If I had to name you a life goal, I would probably  answer: Be happy? That's all I want and all I can ask for. That doesn't mean I will do everything only so I am the happiest person on earth, never mind how others feel about it. When I say all I want to reach for in life is happiness, I mean I want to be that person who wakes up every morning with a smile on her face, without the fact, that maybe not everything is working out perfectly, not everything is possibly the way you would want it. But you still find a reason to make you smile. I want to notice every little positive thing in every day. 

Doesn't matter how small it is. 

It will remind you how worthwhile and treacherous you and your tiny little world of people, problems, job, food, etc actually is. 

That includes making other people happy as well. Because seeing someone beeing happy because of something you said or that you did, is very fulfilling and all in all feels great I guess. To me it does.  

There is a quote I read, which said: "Your journey will be much lighter and easier if you don't carry your past with you". I believe your past will always be a part of you. You may not want to remember things about your past, things you didn't like or days which made you upset. But even those days capture moments, which helped you become the person you are today. Even those memories, which you'd like to erase, they are actually helping you understand things, helping you handle situations in the future.

 A broken heart of yours teaches you how to fix it. If you are having a sad day, it teaches you how to get happy again. In reality you only need to start to open your eyes. You don't even have to search long. As soon as you start looking for the good you will find the beauty in things even quicker than you thought. You will start to enjoy, capture and appreciate it. Suddenly the first cup of coffee, the sun that touches your face when waking up, the smell of breakfast, the warm shower, a lonely walk through the park, a butterfly on the window sill, the neighbors kids' smile, a hug from someone you love, or only the fact you are getting another chance to make the best out of your day every single time you wake up in the morning. (Gosh that sounded terribly cheesy, like out of a Nicholas Sparks novel but way worse. But all in all I hope you get what I am saying. Even though it sounds terribly cheesy it actually has some truth behind it...)

If there was a difficulty the other day it doesn't matter now. 

Today is your opportunity. 

So already writing this down made me feel better. Maybe possibly someone reads this and gets inspired by it. It is way easier than it sounds. Sometimes we only have to start. 

I've got the best and most lovely people in my life and I am very grateful for them. I want to tell them this more often, they should know how much they mean to me. And a short little message maybe can make their day a little brighter. And as I already said, seeing the people I love being happy, can also make my day.

 Hope you are going to have the best day ever!

Where I have been...

So, this took quite a while. 

After my spontaneous idea starting a blog at the beginning of this year, I somehow didn't continue the way i had planned. There have been so many changes. I don't know where to start. 

First of all I'd like to apologize for not posting anything. I feel very bad. But nevertheless, I'm still here and right now it feels really good coming back to this blog. I really missed sitting down at the end of the day, with a cup of tea while looking through some pictures, writing down what happened and what is going on in my mind currently. Now looking back, I should have continued blogging regularly. It's quite therapeutic and I don't have to carry a load on my back. 

Since my last blogpost there has happened so much. I will fill you in with everything, I promise. But right now I'm having difficulties summarizing everything. So keep updated! 

I'm full of ideas and subjects I'd like to talk about! I missed this so much! Good to be back :) 

See you soon xx

Nachtkonsum

Last night I played at the Nachtkonsum in TonHalle. I had an amazing night and gladly I could capture some moments on camera. During playing one of my favourite songs from Coldplay: The Scientist, the battery in my acoustic guitar ran out. So luckily the lead singer from the band after my act, borrowed me his guitar. I must say, I liked it pretttyyy much! Hope you enjoy! :)

Firewater & Firewood / Good Girl

So I've been quite busy with schoolwork these last days - the reason for my minimum blogging. I know it's a shitty excuse, but well it really is true...

However, I finally recorded two songs of mine! Well, it's not the best quality, considering I recorded them live in my bathroom with a not so professional microphone - but, it's better than no recording, isn't it. I posted them on soundcloud. I would be thrilled if you guys would take a look (or better: take a listen?? :D). 

Firewater & Firewood: https://soundcloud.com/janajunker/firewater-firewood

Good Girl: https://soundcloud.com/janajunker/good-girl

Firewater & Firewood

Here is the link to the first song: Firewater & Firewood

https://soundcloud.com/janajunker/firewater-firewood

A little background story to Firewater & Firewood:

The song Firewater & Firewood actually was inspired by the book 'If I Stay' by Gayle Forman. One of my favorite books of all time! The story is about a girl, named Mia who gets into a car-accident and now has to fight for her life. But it wasn't the girl who inspired me to write a song about staying or letting go. It was her boyfriend who at the time had nothing in his hands and all he was praying for, was Mia to want to stay alive and fight for it. I was going through a rough time at the moment and could totally relate to her boyfriend in a similar kind of way. That was when I wrote Firewater & Firewood. 

Firewater and Firewood

You’re the quiet side of the road

You’re the song that I never wrote

Now you’re screaming is so loud

It hurts without making a sound

But I can’t spell it out for you

I’m like firewater and firewood

But I can’t spell it out for you

You gotta find the own way to

But if I could I would say

Please darling stay

You’re soft like angels feathers

Cold as the smell of bad wheather

Now it’s your time to realize

I will be right by your side

But I can’t spell it out for you

I’m like firewater and firewood

But I can’t spell it out for you

You gotta find the own way to

But if I could I would say

Please darling stay

Come on honey

They are waiting everybody

The or’s in your hand

So please understand

But I can’t spell it out for you

I’m like firewater and firewood

But I can’t spell it out for you

You gotta find the own way to

But if I could I would say

Please darling stay

Good Girl

Here is the link to: 'Good Girl': 

https://soundcloud.com/janajunker/good-girl

Behind the Scenes of 'Good Girl':

At the time when writing the song, I fell for a guy, who really loved himself more than everyone else. He was that kind of boy, who thought he'd get everything and everyone he wanted. I couldn't stand the way he treated other girls. Unfortunately even I sometimes forgot what a jerk he actually was. I wrote the song as a reminder for me, of who I am and a message to him, that I'm not the one he thought he knew. 

Good Girl

The way his smile looks to me

When he smiles he takes my hand jently

He makes me feel extraordinary

At least tonight, momentary

What a good girl would do

Is shut up and write a song for you

What a good girl would do

Is hide her eyes for a better view

And What a good girl would do

Is fall in love with you

Love with you

I’m not the one you thought you knew yeah

I’m not the one you thouhgt you knew

I don’t know when, but one day yeah

He only wanted it his way

A good girl ready to obey

I can’t believe those were the words you said yeah

What a good girl would do

Is shut up and write a song for you

What a good girl would do

Is hide her eyes for a better view

And What a good girl would do

Is fall in love with you

Love with you

I’m not the one you thought you knew yeah

I’m not the one you thouhgt you knew

When I’m happy he’s cranky

When I’m crazy he’s lazy

He’s everything I’m not

Now don’t think I’m a good girl

Cause I’m not

Our time was like a fairytale

A game we played, but you failed

You’d better once check your mails

And treat them kind your females

What a good girl would do

Is shut up and write a song for you

What a good girl would do

Is hide her eyes for a better view

And What a good girl would do

Is fall in love with you

Love with you

I’m not the one you thought you knew yeah

I’m not the one you thouhgt you knew

Hope you like my songs, let me know :) 

Till then, hope you are all doing well, and new blogpost coming soon! 

Lots of Love,

Jana

A Brand New Facebook-Page

I made it! 

Finally! 

Somehow the idea of creating a official facebook-page for my music terrified me. 

Yesterday I fortunately got persuaded by friends, family and the organizer for my upcoming concert at nachtkonsum on the 19th in Munich. 

For some reason I am a little worrier and not the most confident person on the planet. Especially not when it comes to something so personal, like showing people the songs I've written, which are as close to me as I had written them in my diary.

Even though there isn't any music on my facebook-page yet, I still thought it would be a great opportunity to keep those who are interested in my music up to date. When hopefully very soon, my songs will be recorded, I will gladly share them on there. 

I would be absolutely thrilled by the idea of you liking the page and maybe recommending to your friends - I PROMISE I will not let you down! 

Honestly I would literally jump up and down out of excitement! 

I'll keep you posted on what's coming up next :)

Thanks for your support 

Lots of Love,

Jana

Lazy Love

Everyone, this is my new favorite thing in the world!

My guitar case. 

Okay, it may not be the handiest object for carrying around your guitar - but it kind of lifts your cool-factor in the musician world. Just kidding it actually doesn't. But still I'm quite in love with it. 

Right now I'm in a very very lazy mood and I have got no idea how to get rid of it... I need to do stuff! 

However, hope you all are doing great. 

Lots of lazy Love,

Jana